I start work at Bellagio tomorrow.  I just wonder how that's gonna go considering the fact that it's raining.  I kinda wanna go watch H.I. at Spring Valley today but the school is so fucking far away from my house, and I really should conserve my gas until I start getting paychecks regularly again.  My bank account is running low...really low.  Yeah, I don't think that I'm gonna go.  I'll probably end up doing the same shit that I usually do on weekends - go to starbucks and/or get fucked up (and possibly fucked..only on a good night. lol). 

I'm finally in regular government.  I love it! The class is so damn easy it's hilarious.  I love my schedule now...nice and simple...the only thing that I have to worry about is making up that math credit that I should've gotten according to the new grading system that the teachers are supposed to use, but I didn't so whatever. 

I'm so happy that I have a job again, and not just a regular job, but a GOOD job that could get me somewhere in life.  This is so huge, now that I'm in the Bellagio I can work pretty much anywhere I'd like to on the Strip or just stay with this company but create a career out of it.  I can make all of the connections that I need to succeed in Vegas right here.  Yess! my life is set! lol. but seriously. I'm so happy, I can't even explain it.  Finally I get my break. Finally, I don't get stuck with the shitty jobs just because all of the good ones were taken.  Finally, I can start to have enough money to pay my bills and have a little extra on the side.  Finally, I'm done typing and I can go take a nap!

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my poor baby xanga has been neglected lately due to a recent addiction to myspace.  I apologize for this. 

 Moving on, I think that my luck might be changing here...lately I've been in a depressing little rut where I go to school and be miserable, come home from school and continue to be miserable, go out for a couple hours with my friends and then feel slightly less miserable but then start thinking about my money situation and how my bank account is dwindling quickly and become just as miserable as before...as you can see, it's a vicious cycle.  Wow, that was an extremely run-on sentence.  But I'm hoping that my luck is changing finally.  I received a call from the Bellagio today to go and take my drug test.  Sure, at first I wasn't worried, until I found out that it was a hair sample.  Now I'm afraid that the ONE time that I took a tiny hit of some weed back in November will come back to haunt me.  Could this really happen?  Could I have the chance to get one of the best jobs a teenager can get and have it be completely ruined by one very rare occasion in my life?  God I hope not.  I don't know what I would even do in that situation.  How do I explain to my parents that I didn't pass my drug test when I claim to have never done a drug in my life?  I don't know, maybe I'm jumping to conclusions here, but if I don't get the job because of the tiny amount of marijuana that has a chance of showing up in my hair it only confirm my theory that God hates me and that I'm always going to get stuck with shit.  Can my luck change for once?  Can I not constantly be punished for whatever sin I've committed?  Ok, so I admit there are a lot of them, but still.  I'm not a bad person just because I do bad things.  If there is any such thing as forgiving when it comes to Karma, can it PLEASE happen at this moment?  I'm begging any outside source to please let me pass my drug test so that I can clean up my life and get back on track.  Please help me get out of my constant state of depression!  I'm not asking for help, I'm begging for it. 

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i just failed trig...AGAIN.  So now I'm credit defficient and i'm not gonna graduate.  i should just kill myself.